can't be mad all you do is pray......

Aight so this chick she consider me HIM so i consider her well HER. Okay so like she really have her mixed days of her mixed feelings don't know what it is but yeah she loca. She say she in love with me and she say she want to be with me forever. She considers me as just that special dude but the fact of the matter is, if i'm that special dude why don't it seem like it? She gets drunk and high, her reasoning for getting high because she want to be like me. If only she understood that i was really against drinking because that's how my father died and her drinking brings back memories. I love her and she know that shit i don't know why the story is diff. with her but i guess oh well.

Okay next topic, so i chilled with my friend all day today she talked about her life & she really spoke truth. She talked about how her mother and father are struggling hard to get her through school and pay for her kid & so i took her to the mall and treated her and him because i mean she don't really get time to spend money on nothing but diapers and shit so i helped her out. I suppose to go to the water park with them tommorow so i think we'll have fun because they have where you can hold your babies on some rides to go down the slides so eh? fun can you say. I'm like thinking about taking them to the baby place they got there so afterwards me and her can actually have fun in the waterpark. She's 17 so i'm saying she still at the fun age lol or that's just what i call it.

Well my party is coming real soon and i guess you can say i'm ready as hell for that to come. I'm mad nervous on how the turnout is going to be because you know how you get that feeling like something ain't gonna go right? I think something is really gonna go bad but like i mean i have handed out flyers that one of my friends made on photoshop, thanks sincere. But yeah she made me some flyers and i handed it to some people i knew & told them tell people they know. so it'll be cool to do that.

For the fact my birthday in august i only have like 2 or 3 weeks before school, smh. Imma be a mad nigga like damn yo but aight i gotta go, time to feed me and the fat girl